Ugh. Today = the worst.

No more Legoland trip, since one person doesn't want to go and two others can't.

And Chase doesn't want to talk to me again. Despite that fact that we have had absolutely NO time to talk these past few days. It's not all that hard to multitask... and it's not like you didn't have almost two weeks to finish the stupid study guide...

And now it feels like he doesn't even care about me. With the "I don't care whether or not you come with us to the movies" deal, and his leaving me alone in the middle of my miserableness.

He wonders why I say I don't think he loves me anymore.

Could it be that fact that he is thinking about breaking up with me, and has been ever since the 17th?
Or maybe it's that he isn't treating me with the same sweetness and kindness he did before this?
Or maybe it's the fact that he is getting closer and closer to a whole lotta girls, and is drifting farther and farther from me.

And then he says he doesn't want to break up as much as I don't want to break up.

That's not true. If it were, then he wouldn't want to break up at all.
Yet he does.

And of course, whenever I try to tell him how I really feel about this, he calls me selfish and says that I don't understand and that he is going through a lot too. HE DOESN'T LISTEN!

It's like... sure. You have to make a tough decision. But it's your fault you have to make it in the first place! And you are complaining because you "don't want this on your shoulders"? try having it so that you have absolutely no control over the outcome.

Not so fun.

It's been 9 days since he first started thinking.
Shouldn't that be enough? :/