I realized that I really miss the old him. :/

No, I'm not going to let this be a stupid rant of mine where I tell the world how much I miss him and blah blah blah. I have no clue. I think I might just ramble for a little bit.
(that's your warning)

Let's see... the other day I was thinking back to when we first started dating. And I think of how things were. They weren't perfect, but I remember just being so happy with everything and being so excited to come to school everyday just to see him and wanting to spend all my time with him. And I'm pretty sure it was the same with him. Just wanting to spend every second with each other because MAN we were in love and nothing could stop that. He used to be this really carefree soul who didn't care about what people thought (very much) and was just so out there and wonderful...

Then high school came and it made him... weird. It turned him away from me, and that's what I always feared was going to happen. We fought a lot more... there was less love... He was more uptight and everything I did seemed to anger him. He changed in a way that seemed to make his heart... hard. Harder toward me, at least.

Not that the "new him" is bad... he just changed in ways that make me long for the person he used to be.

Now, I know I'm not perfect either. I'm quite far from perfect, and I bet I changed too. Hell, he might even wish he had to old me back too. I just keep telling myself "Oh you're still in love with him this sucks blah blah blah".

No.

It's more like "You miss how things used to be."

(sorry if this seems a little weird. I know I haven't written on this topic in quite a while, but I wanted to get my feelings out in a way that is a lot more graceful than my typical methods.)